My Dream Note

This is a list/ vision board through words of what I love to do/ be/ have in my life.

1. Art:
a. Art Instructions Lessons-- learn more skills, techniques
gain diploma/ certification, open new doors to opportunities
b. Galleries-- Make a list/ archive of completed galleries
continue to work on current gallery/ tournament of the year, "Heaven No More"
c. Create what makes me happy, what I LOVE, what makes me feel extraordinary and special.
d. Begin to build studio to teach and invite others and learn from them as well. Share, co-create new masterpieces together.
e. Begin to focus on gaining financial reward from creations, plant seeds throughout fertile grounds (ex: hang landscapes in salon, sell artwork outside)
f. Writing-- write all that you feel should surface from inside of you and place it before your eyes.
update blogs, stay consistent with updating, spreading of positive words/ meanings
Rebuild/ reopen Sanctuary.. go to your God space and connect again with the Love inside of you.
g. Visit more often places of art/ inspiration (maybe every week/ every other week to stay sharp)
h. Become a Hero in your heart and spread your dream of Love/ Heaven once more throughout the lands and in the hearts of all who are open to it.

2. Health:
a. Make a schedule/ routine involving a variety of exercises I enjoy and make me feel good/ full of energy.
b. Monitor, read up on what I eat/ when/ why/ their effects on my body, mind, soul.
c. Work/ enjoy the path towards accepting your body as it is/ what you wish it to change into and why.
d. Maybe work together/ join a partner(s) at times to share our experiences/ trials with.
e. Monitor sleep patterns/ amount of sleep and why amount is needed at certain times.
f. Record, write about experiences of losing/ regaining physical/ mental/ spiritual energy (also when I was hit w/ Alopecia, depression)
g. Talk/ write about my experiences/ trial w/ different diets/ regimes and my choice to vegetarianism

3. Wealth:
a. Remember, understand further what true wealth is and how to attain and maintain it.
b. Monitor what I gain and spend, how frequently.
c. Remember to balance both needs/ priorities as well as desires. (splurge when you can, save when it is possible, take care of responsibilities)
d. Read new books, gain new knowledge on new ways of producing wealth through means of what you love to do/ be.
e. Forgive yourself for the errors of your past/ present and any further choices you might make. Learning is gained through trial/ error often times..it is the natural process. Get up and try again.
f. Give when you can as charity to others. Help your fellow loved ones through their obstacles. Life can be challenging. Alleviating someone is very healing/ hopeful for them and for you. It also sends an enormously powerful statement of who you are in terms of wealth, empowering others.

4. Hobbies/ Fun:
a. Make time for yourself to do/ have what you enjoy so much! (ex: video games, new books, mangas, delicious foods, drawing, going out to cool places and w/ friends)
b. Stay in touch w/ your inner child. Remember the free spirit from your youth and that worry-free attitude/ perspective which allowed you to dream in the first place.
c. Be spontaneous. Do something that you normally wouldn't due to limits placed in your mind from outside fears. Fade the illusion of fear away.
d. Bring forth the imagination/ day dreaming from your inner child/ present personality into reality. Who says you can't live an imaginative life? Life is all about imagination, creation, adventure! Live a fun life!
e. Drop the illusion of judgements from others and from within you about what makes you happy. Everyone is unique and has fun in their own way. What makes you happy may not be the same for another. That's alright and perfectly natural. Variety brings endlessness.

5. My Heart
a. Rekindle the relationship w/ yourself and compromise what your heart/ mind/ soul is after.
b. Do whatever you feel is right for you to be truly and completely happy again and keep in mind that you will deal with the fear that haunts you in the idea that
you may lose it again once you regain it. Be open to understand/ learn/ remember what happiness/ love truly is.
c. Forgive yourself and others for all that you judge yourself for and the guilt that it brought to your being. Build the strength and courage to one day truly and completely let go of what doesn't serve you.
d. Go through all the buried emotions and thoughts in your heart, mind. Experience them again and again if you must. Let it all out of your system and understand why you have these emotions and why you utilize them.
e. Confront your ultimate fear: never loving or being loved again by another. Remember all that loved you and had relationships with. Be completely honest w/ yourself about you and them, why they ended and why they came to be. Find each relationship's purpose and extract the best parts/ gems from them.
f. Give up in a sense. If you do not know something or what to do next, simply stop. Go to a higher source of awareness/ knowledge/ guidance for the answer that lies within you, but that you cannot yet see due to the fog of your pains/ expectations/ judgements.
g. Understand to discern the difference between letting go and giving up. Letting go of the expectation of finding love again does not mean to stop desiring the dream of creating/ attracting love into your life again. Think back and remember/ feel how and why love came into your life each time prior to this moment.
h. Say a prayer of gratitude in advance to the acknowledgement that Love will generate again into your life and that you will find your soul mate again. She is out there perhaps thinking/ feeling the same thing.
i. If I could say something directly to the other soul which shares my own.. the one true heart that loves me unconditionally and I the same, it would be:
"There is much that I can admit I do not understand in life, but I still continue with the faith of my dream and the love of yours.. that you and I would experience the greatest feeling of being and of eternal communion with one another. You are my heart and I yours. I simply miss you an enormous deal and I yearn to have our hearts beat as one again. It hurts that you aren't here and that we are apart. All I ever wanted out of life was to live it with you.. I was my greatest when I was with you.. I just miss it so, and want it back more than anything... but only if you do too. I understand I cannot force love.. it wouldn't be true. I miss my Sun..."